New Year, Old time.

Its eveing again, its dark and its cold. Is it just another winter's evening or does it hold something that brings smile and tears into one's soul. Its not just another evening, its new year's eve. 


What have I lost, what have I gained past one year? this very evening one year before, where was I, what was I doing? was I with friends? Was I enjoying? I look around  and find emptiness, I see through the window and find loneliness. Am I the same person that I was one year before or have I changed, i ask myself. But I can lie to myself, I can decieve my heart telling it that i have not changed, I dont have freinds now who could tell me how have i turned out after a year and probably thats why i feel the emptiness and lonliness in ma world.


Most of the time we dont value the time we have in hand rather praise and cherish the  memories we have had. But the truth is that memories are made when you are in your present, enjoying it and living it. You tell yourself that you had a great time last new year night but dont see the great time your spending right now which probably you will be cherishing in the future. 


So lets wake up from the memories of the past and make some new ones. Lets live in the present and live so well in it that they turn out to be the best memories ever, lets sing and dance for the present and lets hold the hands of our friends telling them how much we value them, lets just move on with the miseries we have had and look for a brighter future, lets just loose control when laughing, lets break all the barriers that are withholding us from living our lives, LETS JUST LIVE. 

When I grew up

I touched the heater and immediately pulled ma hand back, that's where I had ma first lesson . I tried to stand and i  fell down I tried again and fell again, after a few tries I was walking , thats when i knew that we get whatever we want if we keep trying. I discovered that we are instilled a massive energy by the creator, of keep trying no matter wot.

But as I grew up I began to listen to people who would tell me that 'I Cant' and eventually started to beleive them. As they put it that listening is believing. The great amount of 'try again' energy  slowly started to disappear and doubts started to settle in. Can I do it? I would ask my self before i went for something. I started to give up without  trying and sat in a roller coaster down hill.

I have grown up now and I dont dare to touch the heater , fall down again so that i learn how to not get burnt  and how to not fall. I have turned into a machine whose input is in the hands of the people around me. I do as they say hoping this may lead me to a better future. Now I am worried about how it would turn out if i take one wrong decision, I don't have the guts to make a wrong choice.

Am I chained by the society I ask my self deep down in my heart when i am alone, Am I turning out to be as I thought of when i was a child? is this what I wanted ? Am I free to make decisions even if they are wrong? These are the questions that came up WHEN I GREW UP!!!