When I grew up

I touched the heater and immediately pulled ma hand back, that's where I had ma first lesson . I tried to stand and i  fell down I tried again and fell again, after a few tries I was walking , thats when i knew that we get whatever we want if we keep trying. I discovered that we are instilled a massive energy by the creator, of keep trying no matter wot.

But as I grew up I began to listen to people who would tell me that 'I Cant' and eventually started to beleive them. As they put it that listening is believing. The great amount of 'try again' energy  slowly started to disappear and doubts started to settle in. Can I do it? I would ask my self before i went for something. I started to give up without  trying and sat in a roller coaster down hill.

I have grown up now and I dont dare to touch the heater , fall down again so that i learn how to not get burnt  and how to not fall. I have turned into a machine whose input is in the hands of the people around me. I do as they say hoping this may lead me to a better future. Now I am worried about how it would turn out if i take one wrong decision, I don't have the guts to make a wrong choice.

Am I chained by the society I ask my self deep down in my heart when i am alone, Am I turning out to be as I thought of when i was a child? is this what I wanted ? Am I free to make decisions even if they are wrong? These are the questions that came up WHEN I GREW UP!!!